AND FOR SOME REASON I’M SO FREAKING EXCITED.
I’m not usually one to get all pumped on beginning a new year. I mean… tomorrow is still just Tuesday.
But for some reason, this year I am feeling super pumped. Full of love and excitement. I don’t know if the past 3 weeks were just SO STRESSFUL that now they’re over and I can breathe a BIG sigh of relief I feel just… content? But more than that. Because I’m actually excited for 2019.
A few days ago, I went for a walk with a friend of mine. I asked her if she had any New Years’ resolutions. She said, “No. I believe that if I resolve to make a change in my life, I should begin immediately. I don’t need a New Year or a certain date to begin initiating those changes.”
Yeah. I get that, and I respect that, and that is a fantastic way to look at things! Good for her.
But me? Look. 2018 kicked my ass. I mean literally. I am on the verge of alcoholism and I don’t sleep well and I thought I was having a heart attack three weeks ago. I need to make some major changes and as much as tomorrow is just Tuesday, it’s also 2019. January 1st.
THE BEGINNING OF 365 OPPORTUNITIES.
I have had a lot of goals kicking around in my brain the last couple of months. Everything from fitness and health to my career and travel goals. Like, just goals everywhere.
Which is great, I love having goals.
But you know what I also have? Starting tomorrow?
A WAY TO ACHIEVE THEM.
An action plan. I have spent nap times and quiet times and time by myself to ponder some ways to actually change things in my life next year and quit complaining about things next year. It’s not going to be easy, and most of it has to do with an attitude adjustment. But I’m going for it.
And I’m telling you all of this so I feel somewhat accountable to quit being a bitch and live my life the way I want to.
I’ve written out my goals. I’ve written out my plans. Next? I’m going to execute them!
But first? It’s New Years’ Eve. I am going to celebrate. My sister came over this afternoon since both our husbands were working today, and we took all the little cousins to the lake and we had a bonfire. And we may have only lasted an hour outside, but it was so fun. And it made my heart so full to be outside playing with my girls and my nieces.
Tonight we’re going to eat a delicious dinner, have some bubbly, and I think I’ll put on some makeup and a sparkly dress just to make myself feel special. We aren’t going to a fancy party or anything, but we might burn our Christmas tree with my family.
Who knows. All I know that tomorrow, I’m waking up sans-hangover and I’m gonna slay.